Sunday, December 27, 2015

Hello world!

Basically anyone can accidentally stumble here, but I don't have any frequent visitors. Either way hello person who is currently reading this and thinking of leaving! I will still babble my own stuff, so you're free to do as you please.
Wow, am I moody? I guess.. feels weird.
Anyway it is 6am and I have to work tomorrow, but I can't go to sleep. I mean, I did feel sleepy somewhere near 1am, but it's long gone now. Which is awful because I love sleeping in general. But thanks to me being sleepless, this thing was born. Well, at least I update my blog a little. Since I don't write in the horse riding blogs at all anymore (because I quit). Yes, I do not ride anymore.
Actually I've been sleepless for over a month now because I'm living in our home currently. In February I'll be moving back to the dormitory. The thought alone irritates me, because I want to get out of there already. Luckily I'll finish school in June. I can't wait for that to be over. Well, Uni will be next, but that will be far better than that school. I am tired out by the people and life there. I just want to crawl onto my bed, find the darkest corner and hide under my blanket. I really do.
So, having more free time, living at home, celebrating the holidays a little.. I can allow myself to be up late because I am able to catch up on my sleep afterwards. ANYWAY this blog isn't supposed to be about me complaining and blabbering on about my weird life.

This would be the artsy part now!
The part that is actually the theme of this blog thing.
Finally huh? Okay...

As of now I have completely hit a brick wall with the Heroes project. I am thinking of giving up the second part because it is quite clear that I won't finish that. I am even having my doubts about the first part being finished since I have lost my motivation... I made it really complicated and dragged it along for too long, and bam... this happened. Actually this is typical for me. I either overdo it and make it too complicated (therefor it starts to drag and I lose interest) or I just lose interest over time. I am capable of focusing very much and I do have plenty of patience... but lack of motivation or inspiration is hard to overcome really.
Sitting here and pitying myself won't change anything for the better however. So I will make a last effort soon. Yet I'm afraid I'll give one part away. Oh I had such great plans for those two parts. It was all so amazing in my head. Oh well, you gotta know when to give up and move on. Can't just let it burden me forever.
As always, I've got a ton of things on my mind. Things to come, stuff I have to do, what I have to remember... plus all the random and philosophical thoughts that are daily visitors. And I basically have an existential crisis every week (if not often). My mind just decides to depress and make me wonder very frequently. It's interesting but also tiring.
Danisnotonfire talked about existential crises... before I saw his videos I didn't know what to call them. Now I know!

And I strayed off once again.
I should really draw something decent now! I haven't drawn something decent in a while. All just doodles and sketches. So this is something else to add to my ''to do'' list.

So, a recent update. Let's see how this Heroes project comes out, but hope for the best! I really do want to finish it. I worked so hard in the beginning, it would be foolish to just cast it aside. I must make an effort!!! No comfort zone for me! Getting stuck there far too often!
I just told musicpaw that I won't be able to finish my second part. I hope she(I think it's she) understands. There were fortunately enough backups, so there shouldn't be a problem with that.

Now it's all in my hands!
Bye random people!
After all I'm completely random too! So it's a great match, huh?

Here ya go, something christmasy to munch on!
Farewell to all! And to all a good night!
(pretty sure it didn't go like that)

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Dollhouse MAP part

Not amazing, but watchable I think :)
TTYL people :3


It's over! I have gotten over my art block!
I have always had ideas but now they are flowing again and I keep imagining different things to animate and draw. I have even had some ideas for music...
You know I once had a short cartoon idea.. the sort of short cartoon that you could show on TV or something like that. It was inspired from a music piece from the animated movie "Spirit stallion of the cimarron". And one night I started to get a vision of something that could play in the background. So, I imagined music... I do have the best ideas at night. Especially now... they just come. Actually there is a scientific meaning behind it, but that is not what I'm talking about right now.
What started this awakening? (nice expressions..)
My last sketch animation frame was drawn in the beginning of 2012. Even in 2011 I didn't animate as much as I used to. So.....that's atleast 3 years of art block. I did do something, but not much.
So how did I get over it? How did my artist side wake up?
This year Sweden won in the Eurovision song contest. I loved that song right from the beginning. If a song gets your imagination and creative juices flowing, you know it's good. So, THAT song is basically what got me into animating again.

I still always went on youtube and occasionally some animations and MAP projects popped up (since I have subscribed to awesome animators). So, I noticed some amazing MAPs and nice animations there.
One day I went to youtube and searched 'We are the heroes open MAP'. And to my surprise I found one! It just was so perfect! A few parts had been taken... I was so intrigued. I had to.. I just had to.
I had my thousand doubts and then decided to go for it. I asked for a part.
And since the host didn't answer me right away, but a week after I asked. I became curious and started to look trough different MAP projects. I found them interesting and compelling. I had my eye on lots of open MAPs and then asked for a part in two more! Crazy right?
I already asked for two parts in the heroes MAP, and now this?
One of them was really crammed so there wasn't much of a chance there anyway. But the other wasn't, and the part was short (7 seconds). I got that part! And in the meanwhile I got an answer on the Heroes MAP part also. I got it also!
Now I got two MAP parts in my hands, and I hadn't animated in so long...
Then I just took my tablet and started with my Dollhouse MAP part, because that was shorter. I finished it about 3 weeks ago. If I had animated every day, I would have finished much sooner. But I do have a life. And during that time I went horse riding a lot.
I was quite satisfied with the result. Then started to work on my Heroes MAP part (18 sec). It went really well and I got much sketching done. So, something had to go wrong, right? And it did.... I managed to drop my computer. It didn't get serous damage, but after I got it back I was told that it wouldn't be good to travel with it and such, and I have to travel, because I go to a school in the other end of my country (almost). So before and after the weekend... I travel.
Then I was talking with one of the IT guys, and I told him that Vegas was slow and so on. It came out that my computers processor was only dual core, as I actually needed a much more powerful processor for video editing. The only solution that would solve both of the problems would be to buy a new computer.
I did... good bye savings.
Now I have a awesome computer that satisfies my needs.
Therefor my Heroes MAP part has been put on hiatus for about one and a half weeks now. BUT... now all is well and I will shortly continue to animate! Yay!!!

So that's it. A short (haha, you call that short??) story about my recent doings and misdoings. I'm happy and I hope to finish Heroes before the summer ends, so I'd have time to make some short videos aswell.
I'm rising from the grave, so I will try to get some attention in youtube again.
The sad thing is that none of my old friends are active there anymore.... and youtubes design....
But I will try!

That's it for this update.
Have a nice summer!

Monday, May 18, 2015

En-The depths of the sea 

So, this is my long lost project that was never finished. Too bad, but what you're gonna do... I had new ideas and my animation skills got better, therefore I started to improve and correct it, even tough the project was still only haf way done.. I didn't get anywhere with that. (endless cycle)
I hope I'll find the time in the summer to get back on the horse (aka start animating again). I have not done anything like that for a while, yet I still have some unreleased clips and drawings. And oh, how many ideas...
Btw the video is in estonian, but I have translated the dialogues.

Just thought I'd add this old video here, since it's not here..

Est-Tee Mere Sügavustesse 
See on siis minu ammune projekt mis ei saanudki kunagi valmis. Kahju iseenesest, aga midagi pole teha. 
Tulid uued ideed ja animatsiooni oskused läksid paremaks, seetõttu hakkasin juba täiendama ja parandusi tegema, kuigi projekt oli endiselt pooleli.
Ma loodan, et saan mingi aeg ehk suvel aega ja võtan animeerimise jälle käsile. Pole tükk aega midagi väga teinud, kuigi avalikustamata klipikesi ja joonistusi on mul küllaga. Ideid veel rohkem (loendamatu hulk)...

Aga hetkel siis piisab. Avastasin lihtsalt, et seda animatsiooni ei olnud loetelus.